my CAT died

So, I am running around like a chicken with their head cut off, making everyone on time for the bus and I realize I haven't seen my cat. Not like her I begin a search the bus is still coming and I need to get them off so I run them out the door and hear 'Mommy, look at the dead skunk.' My heart sank, before I even looked I knew it was my cat. i ran the kids back in and went to see if it was my cat. Oh, it was. She was road kill. Her eyes were bulging out. Her body was stifff. I couldn't believe my eyes. It was instant shock! i wanted to pick her up and kiss her but I was horrified and frozen! I came back a crying, shaking mess. The bus went by as I called my husband and my mom. My mom hurried over to take the kids. When my husband arrived he scooped her up. Brave in a way I wanted but could not be.  can still picture her face. I still don't know how my house cat was outside. it is a long mourning process to lose a family member! I am happy for all the time I got to have with Star Cat.